No tommorow....

What does it feel to you everyday?
What does it mean to you everyday?
Does it make sense that you are alive,
Or is it that you drag yourself for one more day?
one more of those days and tomorrow it will be the day?

Does it make sense that today you are here...
Tomorrow you may not be...
Or is it always the other...
The one far away who is gonna go?

I will be here to do this..
I will be here to do that..
but do you ever really question
That will i be here?

I do.. and it makes me feel lost..
I do.. and it makes everything meaningless..
but that is for a little while...just a little,
and then comes the realization that i am here..now,
and this is all that i have..
so what do i feel everyday?
so what does it mean to me everyday?
It makes me do everything with the best that i have..
it makes me feel everything as if i have never another chance..
there is no waiting for the right time..for me this is the time...
I do not plan and do not feel what for next ten years..
But now here i am and i want to do this and do it with the best that i have to give it..it feels amazing..:)

The Wedding

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I attended a friends wedding in the morning. Vivek is a south-indian and Bhakti a punjabi. It was amazing to see how relatives from the boy's side and girl's were trying to grapple with the unknown rituals.... what next?.. how to do? etc.. but there were smiles everywhere..the atmosphere was something very different it reminded me of the book written by chetan bhagat Two States.I personally was feeling very proud and i told ram..its a victory. He looked at me quizzically..and i explained that here was another couple who's love has conquered and gained victory over the stupid society rules, caste, etc... and that i am feeling very happy about it.

The day i received their wedding invitation i went back to the days when I and Ram were running around arranging for our wedding. We booked the venue, arranged for the bus for people to reach the venue,printed our wedding cards, ran around inviting everybody( that too together)..what fun we had when we saw the faces of few of our friends when we went to invite them.When i look back sometimes i feel that we should have let our parents do things.. because both of us were dead tired when we actually sat in the mantap, but we also feel very proud and relieved that we didn't let small issues become big because we both were taking decisions.It is a story both of us keep narrating to the new people who enter our lives..not to tell them what unique thing we did but to convey that it is difficult but not impossible for people from different backgrounds and religions, caste, language to marry..and we are an example..and yes my friend Vivek and Bhakti also..
Lots of love to you guys...hope in the light of the honor killing's happening in some places..your wedding be an hope and example for lovers across the country.