My Sahaj Self.......???.....!!!.....:)

'So he was quite aware of the fact that he is supposed to belong to a "kameena jaat". He always claimed to be a humble person, and with this humility, he also claimed to be a person who dared to question. This is true of any one of us. Only if we allow our real, to use the Kabir-ian expression, if we allow our sahaj self to speak out. Sahaj literally means something, which is given to you at your birth, and you do not allow it to speak out and that is why this question becomes pertinent.'
Prof. Purushottam Agarwal

When i read this it made me stop for a while and look at what was happening within me. There is so much of struggle to be something and keep doing something that i am not letting this sahaj self to speak. There is so much of turmoil and need of assurance that we do not let go and let life do what it has to. I see a lack of trust and escapism from understanding one's swabhav. The need to run away from what I believe is  to meditate ( adhyaatma). And I see it , feel it, and then again get caught up in the running. 
And then i go back , listen to Kabir or read Krishnamurti or Gandhi or an article or write up by someone, I pause and see my swabhav. It is essential for us to be in the satsang to be able to watch our swabhav and that is probably what means adhyaatma. To be able to study oneself every moment through sat sang. To do it every moment( which is so difficult) because every moment our mind , our desires and expectations and need to control everything around us is standing up. and that's when satsang( of singing, of reading and listening to people ) becomes necessary.
And yes, just for a fraction of moment i realize that when there is adhyaatma there is no fragmentation of mind and division of everything that is around us. We begin to see the whole and I think that's what kabir is talking to me. I do not need kabir to stand up and talk if there is injustice( social, political or personal) , I become Kabir, I become Gandhi and I become the change.There is no social , or political, there is no division. And when this happens there is love. Love that does not divide. That which makes us one within and one with the cosmos.
main laga use ek se...
sab mera main saban ka, wahan doosra nahin..... 
And then whether you utter ram, kabir, or just speak , what comes is the nirgun,  ram , rahim, keshav, the sahaj self. Your true self, one who speaks to you every moment. Only when you are true to yourself and let the sahaj speak , can you feel the flow of love within.

aap mukh base kabir
kabir mukh base woh
aap chindho hame kabir ki aor
kabir chindhe hame uski aor
prem dagar par chalat chalat
baat aaye ek hi samaj
jis dil base prem vani 
use dil ki aor aave woh chitchor.


May be that's what Kabir means when he says:
"Kabir man nirmal bhaya, jaise Ganga neer.
Peechhey laga Hari phire, kahat Kabir Kabir".


:) niki

Kabir the Weaver Poet- Jaya Madhavan

Kabir in my life...

When I hear the word Kabir, what comes to my mind are the innumerable faces, that I have connected to as a human being in the past 2 years. Kabir was there in my life as a thought..as a voice of wisdom through the words of my mother. But the past few months Kabir has become a part of my family and my existence. Every moment we are humming the songs, thinking about his dohas,connecting it to our experiences, our lives. Kabir lives for us in the voice of innumerable folk singers.
Kabir became alive to me when I read that he was a weaver.A weaver who has woven the most beautiful cloth to wrap ourselves up in times of pain, confusion, loneliness, conflict and anger. A cloth woven to wrap around us in this journey of our life.
While reading the book ' Kabir the Weaver Poet' written by Jaya Madhavan, I felt I was reliving the life along side Kabir. It is so beautifully woven and the words are so appropriate. The way she has woven her words to lead us in the one day of Kabir's life, what comes out very strongly is the calmness and stillness of Kabir's mind. The way he goes about doing his work , meeting people and then when he speaks it is nothing but the truth. The circumstances make dhaga also speak the words of Kabir but it is more to point out to others, whereas when Kabir speaks it is nothing but truth.
I have connected personnaly to Kabir as a weaver. Weaver of cloth and the weaver of words.Weaving as a process is something that you can do only if you are alert and in the present state. And, in the process, all thoughts cease to exists. this reminds me of my favourite conversation in the book, the conversation between Kamali ( the acrobat) and Kabir. The author has very beautifully brought out a very important aspect of cessation of thoughts, of past, of future and everything around, which leads us to understanding of what is the truth. The acrobat does not think of anything whens she is on that tight rope high up in the air. The only thing for her is the rope( that too not the end of the rope) but the rope that exists there at that moment in front of her. She gives herself completely and that is what Kabir says is for him, giving himself completely to the GOD and then nothing matters, relations,material world, death nothing.For him it is being one with oneself at this moment...and the author has brought that out beautifully throughout the book.

I am unable to see Jaya as the author, I feel its Kabir talking to us throughout the book.That's what is remarkable about the book. It is a must read.
Thank you Jaya for this wonderful gem.

Nikita.